I lied…
              About who I was.
And for that I’m sorry.
But I’m not who you think I am.
You take me as perfect.
As confident and bold and loud.
Honestly. I’m not any of those things.
I’m a coward and shy and quiet.


I lied…
               About how I felt.
And for that I’m sorry.
I love you. More than words can describe.
I truly love you.
But I didn’t absolutely hate him.
I thought I cared about him but I didn’t.
I thought I loved him but I didn’t.
I said I was ok with it but I wasn’t.

I lied…
               About everything else.
And for that I’m sorry.
I said you meant the world to me but you don’t.
                                      You are my world.
I said I liked you but I don’t.
                                         I love you.
I said wanted you in my life but I don’t.
                                          I need you in my life.
I said I’d do anything for you but I won’t.
                                             I’d do everything for you.

I was honest.
I don’t want to be with anybody but you.
I won’t ever leave you.  
You will always have my heart
And I will love you no matter what happens.

I’m sorry for everything. For lying.
For yelling.
For crying.
For all the things I said.
And the things I didn’t say.
So this is….. My apology.